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In love with a prostitute

Hi bros need some advice, i only started cheonging recently. Virginity was taken away by a thai chick, completely regretted it and not a pleasant experience. She said her mouth hurts, no kissing no bbbj and i left without cumming.

So the second time i decided to try a local FL..was still feeling very nervous that day..i read the FRs and brought a tub of ice-cream to play with her..

Waited a while at hotel and she arrived very fast while i was scrambling/bathing cos i accidentally squeezed ice-cream all over my shirt..

When she came in i was really surpised, she looked really sweet...i'd never had imagined she's doing this if i met her on the streeets.

Soon she started the action..bbbjing me.my first time felt so good..and we went on to play with the ice-cream, and the bedsheets were in a bloody mess all stained.

Next we went to the showers together and started to chat abit i started to feel more at ease because of the way she talked. She seems like such a normal girl when we chatted about her character and told she was 21 this year blur and forgetful etc...the chat really made me feel less nervous..
i almost wanted to ask her the reason shes in prostitution, but i keep reminding myself its a taboo to ask..

Next we proceeded with the action, every was beatutiful, really enjoyed the feeling of being close to her, my first kiss too...

Even tho i couldn't cum again..she had to give me a HJ..the experience felt really good like a gf..

Then we bathed and chatted more again about herself, and myself..told her about a girl i liked whom i didnt confess to and is now in the States with her bf....

She even enouraged me abit..at that moment i felt kinda attached to her...
even handed me some of those gummy sour sweets she bought at 7-11...felt that was really sweet of her..

after that she told me gotta rush off...kissed on the lips and she left.

since that day i've been thinking of her everyday cant even concentrate at work. Just feel like meeting her again and again...because im scared one day she may just quit and i wont be able to find her anymore...i really hope i could contact her directly in any way..,but i know yet again its a taboo to ask for her contacts...

i've been feeling very miserable i really want to know her more as a person.
Why shes doing it and i often think, if we didnt meet this way(commercial sex), would she even have talked to me? Im a fat loser and shes a cute girl.

My buddies told me everything is a pretence, cos i pim her customer. She just did what she was paid to do.

But i somehow feel her true nature when we chatted, shes just a young girl at heart. And must be stuck with some problems so she has to do this. I really want to know her more and try to help..even tho i dun think i am capable of helping..

I want to tell her i like her and want to know her more and be a friend, i wanna get her contacts so that i wont lose her if she quits..
but scared to ask cos i thought one possiblity she might freak out and tell her okt to blacklist me...then i wont be able to see her anymore

im really confused right now, and my 1.4k (left with 500 after bills and parents etc) pay cant really support this habbit of meeting her regularly, 200 once..
In a way im scared if she quits i cant see her anymore, in another i really hope she can leave this line asap and wont do it again too.
but guess il do it anyway.

need some advices...thanks