is there any way to find softcore exp?

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By softcore, i meant, jst bbs or cuddles.
i even hv slight fetish of lcttion, but many girls deem that as crazy.

So, nothing works(not even tinder, its fully of girls way out of my league).
I'm honest guy, never tried to trick or sweet talk any.
But, always treated as trash.
So, trying for paid servc., but its not either too expensive(few k),
or mssge place, full only handjob and old aunts.

There is simply no way to find a mutual one. Girl in our country prefer one-to-one, which is their choice, respectable, but won't work for likes of us, like never i think.

I admit i nvr touched any girl for real. Not even close.
I'm the bit ugly kind, and brown skin(chinese and Malay nvr looked at me).

So, i'm searching. Any tips?